my friend's quotes..: Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you I had no control over.” I don't ever want to forget her face, but if I don't, I'll go crazy. How can I remember the face I can't forget? Suddenly I'm writing country-western music! "She's something and I'm nothing. When she looks over at me, there's nothing to see. How can she talk to someone who's nothing?" "In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back" “Hapiness is anyone and anything that's loved by you.” "I've developed a new philosophy . . . I only dread one day at a time" "Sometimes I lie awake at night and I ask, "Why me?", then a voice answers "Nothing personal, your name just happened to come up." "Sometimes I lie awake at night, and I ask, "Where have I gone wrong?" Then a voice says to me, "This is going to take more than one night." "That's the secret to life . . . replace one worry with another." "There must be millions of people all over the world who never get any love letters . . . I could be their leader." “Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone always leaves. Then we would have to say good-bye. I hate good-byes. I know what I need. I need more hellos.” “Friends are like bras: close to your heart and there for support.” "This is my depressed stance. When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this" “If I stand here, I can see the Little Red Haired girl when she comes out of her house... Of course, if she sees me peeking around this tree, she'll think I'm the dumbest person in the world... But if I don't peek around the tree, I'll never see her... Which means I probably AM the dumbest person in the world... which explains why I'm standing in a batch of poison oak.” “I just laughed about it, ... I just thought if you're going to align yourself with somebody, it might as well be champions. He made his own decisions, not doing something just because you have to do it. He had his own sense of purpose.” “It always looks darkest just before it gets totally black.” “If you don't like their rules, whose would you use?” “It's a deceptive and deceitful campaign, ... Domestic violence is not on the ballot. Alcohol is not on the ballot. Marijuana is on the ballot.” “The Navy ship returned fire after being fired upon.” “My property here, the tavern is in the plume and my home is borderline.” ( my friend's quotes.. which were dedicated for me. He tagged this quotes for me on August 29, 2009 via facebook. I like this qoutes. Nice, simple, unique ,meaningfull )

what i like what i don't...,

You can say i'm a .... or i'm a ..... You can call me ...... or ...... But, you should know me more first to do that. And after that, it's all up to you weather you wanna say that i'm a .... or ...... it's all up to you. 1. I like listening music I don't know when i start to bloody love music. it could be before my birth. Mom said, she listened music and songs since she was young and when she got pregnant in me, she' really love listening music, especially foreign music and song. I like hip hop, Rnb, acoustic. Bloody love acoustic, because it can take me into deep like what the lyrics told. But, i do love Rap. i like to speak quickly. I've ever dreamed that i used to be a rapper ( wow.., whad'a.....???) 2. I like watch movie. i like drama, i like action, romance, comedy, science, but i don't like Colossal movie ( just like a boring movie ). 3. I like speak quickly. sometimes people doesn't know what i mean because i talk quickly. 4. I always listen when my friends tell their story, but i don't look at their face. Although i listen, give advise, and give feedback, but they feel that i don't hear their story. i don't know, it's a bad habit or respectful activity. Huhh,.., i have no idea. As far as i know, when i do it, my friends feel upset. 5. i like collect the cure bandage ( bandage inside first aid kid box ). The colorful bandage..., humm... love love lovee.... 6. I'm a moody girl. hufff.., it's confusing me. I try to change my habit ( bad habit ) but it doesn't work well. I just look like inconsistent person. Even in the 5 minutes last, i can change my opinion or decision. Whad'a... 7. I had flirt on a young boy ( younger than me ) when i was in high school, I've ever flirted on a boy who's younger than me.. Hahaa.., how come? .Just because i took extracurricular ( basketball) and he was also.. So.., i had a different feeling with him. WWooooww..., 8. I like writing. I like writing,it was. but i don't know why i feel that i loose my capability on writing. So , now, i'll try to find my spirit back to be back on my writing rules. 9. I hate reading and now i'm trying to love reading again. started when i passed the road and there were many commercial board on the side of road. So, i felt bored coz when i saw the board i could always see a words/sentences.. So, that's why i start to hate read the words.. fu fuu.. 10. I haven't seen Lord of the rings. 11. I haven't ever read harry Potter's book. 12. I like taking a picture than somebody else capture me. 13. I like using english. Although i know that my english isn't good and perfect, but i always use it because i thing while i use it. It means that i also study about that and never stop to learn. Sebenernya bukan maksud sok-sok an ato gimana, tp cm learning by doing aja.. 14. I played basketball since high school i like playing basket ball, i like watching basketball game, especially IBL...., hum humm.. missing that moment... 15. I hate ironing clothes, dress, t-shirt. i rather washing dishes than ironing it... 16. My fav movie is 'princes diary' .... bloody love that movie. 17. I like learning international law since i was in elementary school and I ever imagine that ' when i ground up, i hope that i can study about it. 18. I like dawson's creek drama series. Actually i don't like the ending of this story.., Finally, joey choose pacey..how come..?? how about dawson..?? joey, the girl who is dawson's first love go away with another man, and he's his their best friend too, Pacey.

the things that i wanna do, at least this 2010

_ Things that i really wanna do : 1 . I want to play skateboard.

although i don't know how to use and i haven't tried yet play this board, but i really want to feel it. Standing on the board.., this gonna be cool

2. Go to the beach ( beautiful beach ) and take picture there.of course with the white sands. go to the beach with my friends and play there, sounds great. 3. Get the job. get the job ( like what i expected ) which can make me settle, use the salary to fulfill my life 4. Watch the movie with the special person. I have no comment about this. I can only wait when the day is come. 5. Doing backpacker. With my friends. Started from around java island, then goes to bali-lombok-bunaken- and around indonesia- Japan- Europe- last destination ' USA'. 6. Make an indie movie Of course be a behind the screen person, a director. That's great. 7. Watch the music concert. no matter acoustic music, rock, punk, emo, alternative, that's okay. Especially when i go with my friends or my special one. 8. Find my special one ( at least next month, i hope... ; ) . this has to be a guy that i can spend my time with, share all my story with, control my self ( but i wouldn't let him control whole my life, i just need him to control what the best i can do, and what should not i do ) 9. Have a date with my special one and doing weird activity . go somewhere or doing something good with my special one. It doesn't mean that i will do something stupid or negative activity. But, my dating dreams are playing basketball with him, rent a DVD drama/comedy/action, unless scary movie and horror ; sunday bicycling ; go to some where like tamansari/kotagedhe/kotabaru/alun-alun, take a pic, doing narcism picture ; ride the motorcycle in the little pouring rain, night, that would be a romantic situation. 10. loose my wight yes, i want it. with the biG no douBt...

My Fav korean drama..

This is my favorite Korean drama, the only one that i really like. The title is my sassy girl chun hyang or 'delightful gir chun hyang' in English. Sebenernya inti ceritanya klise, about love, cewek naksir cowok, pertamanya si cowok nya gk suka, lama-lama suka. Tapi, suka aja sm jalan ceritanya. Cerita yang aneh, rada unik. Dalam perjalanan cerita menuju cerita yang klise itu yang seru nya. Ada cerita komedi nya, serius, the meaning of life and love ( walopun cuman sedikit dan seberapa persen saja ). Tapi over all, manteb lah. Manteb dari segi apanya sih..? Gak sekedar dari ceritanya aja sih.., soundtrack nya oke.., pengambilan gambarnya oke, mnurutku cinematography nya yg oke. Aku suka pas pengambilan gambar yang diambil dari berbagi sudut dan sisi. Keknya, satu kali take, mereka menggunakan lebih dari 3 kamera, makanya bisa dapet angel dari berbagai sisi, keren lah .. Trus editting nya juga total. Bukannya ky sinetron yg serba nanggung dan asal close up muka pemaennya. Kl di drama Sassy girl itu, keliatannya total banget di bikin nya... Editing nya total, pake diwarna2 in segala. Trus, ceritanya juga gk terlalu dibanyakin bumbu2 hot nya, paling mentok adegan kissing nya mong ryong and chun hyang.., gk terlalu fulgar, tp berbobot. Like this lah.

Movie : The Terminal ( very recommended )

The Terminal

Viktor Navorski befriends the staff at the terminal, including flight attendant Amelia Warren (Catherine Zeta-Jones), while being under the watchful eye of Immigration Officer Frank Dixon (Stanley Tucci), who wants Navorski removed from the airport. Initially being deprived of food by Dixon as a method of trying to get Navorski arrested and made someone else's problem, Navorski takes on the task of retrieving vacant baggage trollies for the 25 cent reward. He uses this money to buy food until eventually Dixon prevents him from collecting. He then makes his first friend, a catering car driver named Enrique (Diego Luna) who asks him to approach a female security officer named Dolores (Zoë Saldana) for him in exchange for food. After meeting Amelia and being asked out to dinner, Navorski tries to earn money in order to ask Amelia out instead. He finally gets an off-the-books job as a construction worker at the airport earning $19 per hour.

One day, Viktor explains to Amelia that the purpose of his visit to New York is to collect an autograph of the jazz tenor saxophonist Benny Golson. His late father was a jazz enthusiast. He had discovered the "Great Day in Harlem" photograph in a Hungarian newspaper in 1958, and

vowed to get an autograph of all the 57 jazz musicians featured on the photograph.

A few months later, the news reports that the war in Krakozhia is over, but Dixon will still not allow Viktor to enter the United States. Amelia reveals that she had asked her 'friend', actually a married government official with whom she had long been having an intermittent affair, to assist Viktor in obtaining permission to travel within the US, but Viktor is disappointed to learn she has renewed her relationship with the man during this process.

To make matters worse, Dixon needs to sign the form granting Viktor the right to remain in the United States, but refuses, instead deciding to deport him out of spite. Thanks to the timely interference of the friends Viktor has made during his stay in the terminal, he is allowed to leave the airport. As Viktor prepares to take a taxi to the Ramada Inn, 161 Lexington Avenue, in New York, where Benny Golson is performing, he observes Amelia exiting from a cab, where she gives him a wistful smile. He attends the show and collects the autograph, finally completing the collection. Afterwards, Viktor leaves and hails a taxi, telling the driver: 'I am going home.'

** Woww.., keren banget tuh muvie....Tom hanks, akting nya emg gk perlu di raguin banget.. bener2 two tumbs up buat dia.. Pertama ngeliat sih film nya biasa2 aja.. dan malah sedikit under estimate sm ninh muvi, soalnya casing-an film nya, rd aneh.. 10 menit pertama masih biasa2 aja.., kl udah nyampe 40 menitan, baru kerasa kl film ini bagus. Untung lah background kuliah di fakultas hukum sedikit membantu buat memahami apa maksud dari film ini. HUm, talk about thiss..jd pengin ntn film ini lagi. Perjuangan seorang Viktor yang tanpa status kejelasan kewarganegaraan karena negara nya sedang mengalami kudeta dan pemerintahan dalam keadaan kosong, so negara nya dianggap tidak ada. Karena negaranya tidak diakui dia tidak mendapatkan izin dari petugas imigrasi bandara untuk memasuki kawasan negara New york dan akhirnya dia hanya boleh tinggal di bandara. Padahal tujuan kedatangannya ke US dikarenakan ayahnya memberikan wasiat bahwa dia harus menemui pemaen musik jazz yang sangat digemari almarhum bapaknya. Dia diberi wasiat untuk memintakan tanda tang n pemain jazz itu. Sebernernya alasan dia dateng ke US itu emang rada silly , demi sebuah tanda tangan dan untuk menghormati wasiat dari ayahnya, jarak US yang sebegitu jauh nya dari negara asalnya dia tempuh. Dia tidak akan pernah pulang ke negaranya sebelum mendapatkan tanda tangan itu. Mesakne yo nek dipikir2. And finally, he spends his life in airport ( suatu hal yang belum pernah terbayangkan sebelumnya, apalagi di jadiin sebuah ide cerita yang dii jadiin film ). Love story begins after he meets Amelia, a stewardess. Love at the first sight . Film ini setipe macem 'saving private ryan'.., sebuah pengorbanan hanya untuk sebuah hal kecil. Sebenernya ceritanya sedikit klise, tragis ( red : his relationship with amelia ), but over all..this movie is awesome...

A troubLe with a SOng

(before read this note, pliss read the direction) => Direction : dont read this note, it's crazy, it's a joke, bad grammar a.k.a. kacau, bad vocab, I offer you not tu read this note bcos it doesnt important to you nacha and nasa is getting crash , tonite.. nacha : " wake uP wake up !! Dont try tu listen that song anymore.. it's a big 'NO'... " nasa : " but this is one of the best song I've ever listened " nacha : " Du you kno what Sixpence's said 'dont dream is over' !! so, why U still listening to that song and keep dreaming this human being..? " nasa : " I Luv this song " nacha : " Dun ever said that you love this song " nasa : " could you give me a reason why ?" nacha : " just believe me lah !! if you want tu forget it, just forget it rite nuw..!!don't dreaming and wake up..!!" nasa : " of course i want tu forget it. I dont want to addicted with this kinds of human being . But i still want tu listen this " nacha : " if you still remembr this song, I bet you cant forget it" nasa : " Yes, i can...... " nacha : " No ,you cannot .............." nasa : " okay.. ur right. honestly, i cant forget it until right now " nacha : " ha ha ha... just listen what I said..!! " _ NAsa , 19-08-2009..., 11.18 pm.

P I E C E S,,

how could you do that to me ... my self.... do you thing this is the bEst thing that you can do... No you wrong...., totally wrong....wrong wrong wrong.... daMn.....!!! sumtimes i hate you.. but sometimes i bloody hate you... i dont kno what should i say to you....., but 1 thing that i'm going to do... i will not and let her be hurt by you... not for me, not for her..... it's all about you honestly...,i'm not okey when i say that im okey... but i dont want to make my self fall into deep.. and so deep...., it doesn't mean that i want to runaway from you or smthing............ i faced it....., but..., its my way to make my self gettin better and stronger.................. somthing missing.. and it's been for along time ago... would i take it back what am feeling... i guess not... am sorry i can ... it's too late for you....., even if you beggin me... and lean on me.... am so sorry..., i know.. this is become my sin if am not forgive you... but it's too hurt too to forgive.... and too late to take it back.... would you pliisss open your eyes and your ears........ see me !!! listen to what i said !!!! _ Nasa 28 -09-2009..... 10.47 pm

this day, 8 Juni 2010...

Positive and Negative effects of brokenheart

Wahh, kacau . Nampaknya emang sudah game over semuanya. Setelah semua usaha , for few months... NO no no, i think it's almost spend a half of yeAR FEEL about that. It was my false why i had to make it so complicated and always thought about that. Kupikir sebenernya lumayan menyenangkan, tapi ternyata ending nya kaya gini..dan aku gk suka banget nget ngettt..., amat sangat nggak suka. Ya iyalah.. secara, di dunia ini siapa yang mau dan dengan sukarelanya merasakan broken heart. Wah, gak bener nih.. pikiran tambah kacau saja. Hiiihh.., i hate today. today, when i saw the fact.. ow My 4jj, it's just like a dejavu. This thing has spinning on my mind about 2 weeks. Wah, peka sekali aku dan sedikit six sence ( tp bukan lah, cm perasaan peka yang berlebih dan kebetulan menjadi kenyataan ). Campur aduk lah perasaan saat ini, Jelas lah, namanya juga patah HATI, patah arang. Yang ada cuma perasaan sebel, marah, huhhh...hahh...keluh kesah, ya yang paling jelas ya patah hati itu sendiri.. Aduhhh.. mana tugas ku sedang menumpuk. I cant focus on my job.. Wah, ini sangat tidak menyenagkan sekali. Tapi segi positif dari brokenheart, aku jadi lebih bersemangat buat meneruskan perjuangan ku dalam hal tulis menulis.. Asikk..aku mau melanjutkan cita2 ku dulu yg pengin jadi screptwriter.. Aneh juga, brokenheart kuk malah membuatku semangat buat nulis lagii.. Wahh, finally i find my spirit back on writing.. Aku suka.. Mari kita lanjutkan. ternyata brokenheart membawa sisi positif.. Thanks GOD...!!!!!! ( nacha / tuesday, june, 08 2010. On my sister's room.. at 09.10 p.m. )

the weird brokenheart

You, came along with all the story... with the smiles... laughs.. stupid things... advises... memories... does it enough?? i think it were more than enough.. how many days we spend with all the stupid things? how many days we spend with all the memories? I like when we were talking about stupid jokes, I like when we were talking about all the things that we should be and we should do, I like when i shared my story...,,even the story that i couldn't tell to smbody else.. that was bloody weird.., but i like that..., i feel, i'm breaking..., even i dont feel smthing, but, yes... i do breaking, and i need you to do something....

this is for you ( spesial buat yg merasa saja )

damn you.., i think that you'll make it true.., with all the things and you always try to..., how can i change my mind.., he blows me nothing but i feel something he doesn't say something but i say many things..., i felt nothing when he said something i felt nothing when he always tried to i felt nothing when he made me felt something... it was.. and it was..., now where are you.., it's been far faraway from the day that i met you.., such kind i'm looking for you but i don't love you..., even i don't really need you.., but, i want you..., just you.. and you..., perhaps i'll know the answer when i met you perhaps this will go away as soon as possible.., but, the only thing that i want is you.., (nacha, June 3, 2010... 00.30 a.m )